Navigating Expectations

“They” say not to have expectations, and I quickly realized why. As I handed my original photo on a canvas to the artist, the reaction was underwhelming. It had me feeling… inadequate? I HAD to remind myself that these individuals in the public eye meet all kinds of people with a multitude of experiences, talent, and passions on quite a large scale.

However, I woke up the next day with this; I encourage ALL artists to keep pushing. I had the guts to share what I love, and I did not come this far to ONLY come this far. Even in times when I feel like my art or anyone feels like [their] art made less of an impact than desired, YOU did that. YOU produced that. [You] will magnetize the right individuals who are meant to appreciate you. My point is, I feel, [we] must endure a of challenges until we reach the point of success. I believe the challenges are what is building up the tolerance, the consistent bravery and courage I really want to have.

These individuals, this band are simply “souls in a skin suit,” navigating their own life journey. They are just in a different part of their journey than I.

So then I thought, “what is it that disappointed me?” I ponder, perhaps it is all the travel and wonderful things they endure and have the opportunity to soak in? Is it all the individuals they meet and stories they’ve heard? Is it the experiences in general, the lives they impact? But, honestly - who am I to say they do, indeed get these opportunities I speak of and/or even have the chance to enjoy it?

I shouldn’t assume.

Fame may make some, but if I truly think about it, I don’t necessarily desire my life’s worth, my passion, or my impact on this world to be dependent on sales or contracts. I am sharing a part of my soul - the deepest part of me. Would that really fill my heart?

Unsure, but doubtful.